Last status was at 9th May 2021.
This status: 7th December 2022
I'm well :-)
Physical:The MRIs show shadows on my brain. The experts agree that it is radiation necrosis rather than tumour. A tumour would be fast growing -- and bad. The current shadow is growing but slowly so not good but not dangerously bad. So that's good.
The cancer cells are still in there... waiting. Waiting more than five years so far, it's a bit embarrassing :-)
I have no vision to my left. My eyes are fine (for my age!) it's the brain that is the problem. Or, rather, it's the missing bit of brain. That problem will never be fixed.I've lost a lot of fitness. The chemo treatment lost me some lung capacity. That slows my running but otherwise is no worry.I'm back to running -- slowly but regularly. I have to watch out to my left. I try to be aerobic, to rebuild lung capacity.Overall... I think I'm doing okay... for my age :-)
Mental:Again... okay for my age :-)I read, do crosswords, am having a phone app written.I do have problems -- most of which are because it can be difficult to see things. I see okay but miss whatever is on the left. The start of words, for example. It's hard for me to quickly look at and understand something.But I think -- I hope -- that most of the mental problems are related to vision.
Emotional:Right now, I'm feeling fine.Yet there is an underlying feeling of... being worried. Almost scared. Concerned... for Deb. Anger... at the state of the world, almost relief that I am not expected to see too much more of it.But here and now -- very happy.Keeping busy. Making plans. Doing this and that, not too much but enough to keep my mind on the present. Which is very good.I can't claim to be feeling positive.Nor am I feeling negative.I'm in the live-life-as-it-comes zone. Which is where I want to be...and that's something to be glad about :-)
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