today: all well

Next week is scan week. Two scans: MRI of the head, PET of the body.

This week I read, play games, try to not think too much.

I try to keep balanced expectations. Or, rather, non-expectations: don't expect good results, don't expect bad. That way the actual results are not a terrible shock... nor a great thrill, either. This time my expectations are somewhat negative.

I wonder if a string of "good" scan results makes me think that my luck is due to run out? Whatever the reason, my expectations are not as neutral as I would like. Not worried, though, just a little bit gloomy.

===

As with any pre-scan period, any physical twinge is a worry. A few nights ago I had a minor headache, I "never" have headaches, is this the start of a brain explosion? Logic tells me that a tumour-related headache would be on the same side of my head as the tumour. The worry fades as quickly as the headache.

The soles of my feet are still numb in spots and sensitive in other areas, my toes still occasionally itch horribly, I blame this on the chemo drugs. They are known to affect extremities, there's a medical name which I forget. It was a relief when one extremity stopped being numb and I could feel myself pee.

Sensitive readers may skip this paragraph... I now have a slightly itchy spot on the end of my penis. It looks red and a bit dry. Is this some weird after-effect, or is it age-related? Has it just appeared (I don't often stare there)? Whatever it is -- I don't like it. And mysterious red spots just add to my bad mood. Which should clear when the scan results are in.

===

I've finally accepted that I have reached the limit of my skills for writing a phone app. Not to worry -- I will pass the task on to experts. I'm starting discussions with a development group. So I shall be wasting money rather than time... I hope it's worth it!

===

For those who read the holiday posts in this blog: Yes, we did arrive home safely. It's a common problem, we arrive home and notes from the last day remain unwritten.

For those who care -- and who will not see the final printed version -- think: Jurien, picnic with wildflowers, a cache or two, disappointing vanilla slice, a final day of peaceful roads less travelled... and home.

Dr Nick Lethbridge / Consulting Dexitroboper

...        Agamedes Consulting / Problems ? Solved

===

I'm not cynical… just experienced… per Ginger Meggs

===

Dying for you to read my blog, at https: // notdotdeaddotyet .blogspot. com. au/ :-)