treatment

we meet with the cancer doc, to discuss the latest scan results.

and, I guess, to look at future treatment.

Why "I guess"?

I was handed ten typed pages about bevacizumab and lomustine. Handed to me by an unfamiliar woman. no introduction, no explanation.

 a bit later, the doc may have said that the strange woman is the doc's offsider.

what I do learn is that I can closely watch the doc, listen carefully to every word she says -- and have no idea what she is talking about. I'm not sure if it's because I don't like her or if it's why I don't like her.

Anyway, talking with Deb and reading google, those big words are cancer-treatment drugs.

those ten pages are supposedly a treatment schedule -- with no dates, no details. nor any date for a scan to check progress. so I guess it's just ten pages to be binned.

One thing is clear, from the meeting, my tumour has grown

i've been on bev... treatment for a few months. 

in the first month the tumour shrank. Since then it has grown... bigger? smaller? than the original? No idea.

today (the day of the meeting, was an IV treatment of bev...we went on to that. What about the next? in another three weeks?

and should I try the ther drug, lot... capsules.?

according to Google... neither will do much : a low chance of doing nothing much at all

... and the nothing much would be just a few months extra life.

oh, and most of the ten pages is side effects. all of which are, if you get this, go immediately to emergency at your nearest hospital.

so a few extra months of really lousy quality of life.

our immediate response was to leave. and probably stop treatment.

the very first shrinkage of the tumour, I'll put that down to a clean life and positive thinking.

now, several days later, I'm trying to document the value of that meeting.

printed info: nothing I can do for myself. nothing from the doc to say what to do.

google follow up, not promising.

cancer doc value: bugger all.

it's easy to say, no more treatment.

the decision does feel a bit uncomfortable.

I may as well depend on more positive thinking.

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