attitude not changing

I see my cancer,  its ups and downs, as something that happens, can't be changed,  so... I just put up with it. 

my attitude is either acceptance or... denial.  I'm never sure which. 

very "mindful" philosophy. but boring. 

I consider changing my attitude, but to what? 

I consider,  mild annoyance. 

as in,  I can't tie my shoelaces, that's mildly annoying. 

deb takes this -- mistakes this-- very personally. 

if I am annoyed, deb will be annoyed. 

she bans me from any level of annoyance. 

so my attitude will stay at boring acceptance. 

If all else fails -- get a bigger hammer


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http://notdotdeaddotyet.blogspot.com
dying for you to read it :-)

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Dr Nick Lethbridge
Consulting Dexitroboper