slow recovery

saturday night i stay awake till 1am... when i feel well enough to go to bed. not exactly "well" but "well enough". and i sleep very well. except...

but first: on friday we were child minding. we? i was asleep all afternoon. grandson -- so deb tells me -- commented, if grandad sleeps all day won't he stay awake at night? good thinking... except that my superpower is to sleep all day *and* all night :-)

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when i finally get to bed on saturday night -- after sleeping and dozing for a lot of the day and evening -- i sleep well. except that i am up every hour to have a pee. the dex effect is wearing off. fluid retention is reversing. when i weigh myself in the morning i have lost 2kg since yesterday.

i'm still bursting out of my clothes. after a gentle stroll (for coffee) i ask deb to go to a clothes shop. i can barely walk -- i cannot sit comfortably -- in my size 34 shorts. i buy the same brand and style at size 38 and can sit comfortably. though if i need another pair i may buy size 40.

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i try to be honest and complete in this blog. sometimes it takes a few days to be able to describe something. especially feelings.

late last week (friday?) i go for a very short walk, 2km. i'm tired and feeling not so good. as i walk i'm thinking of death. not of dying but of the inevitability of death. gloomy thoughts.

the walk helps. by the end i have stopped thinking of death. started thinking of... just... how bad the cancer treatment is. usual stuff :-)

by now i am back to standard: putting up with the treatment, complaining about it, enjoying being looked after by deb.

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this morning i hit my hand on a cupboard. and bruised a lot. increased sensitivity? luckily my latest drug builds white cells so i won't get infected :-) so far -- good news -- none of the possible side effects of pain as the white cells grow.

now i'm tired and don't like to stand up too suddenly. not too bad. improving... till the next major treatment :-)

====    Dr Nick Lethbridge  /  Consulting Dexitroboper
Agamedes Consulting / Problems? Solved.
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"If I had only one hour to save the world, I would spend fifty-five minutes defining the problem, and only five minutes finding the solution." … Einstein
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dying for you to read my blog: notdotdeaddotyet.blogspot.com.au :-)
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